Why Have I Not Been Writing?

Why have I Not Been Writing? 

1. I've been lazy. 

I am REALLY good at procrastinating and as much as I have wanted to write, I have been putting it off. 

2. I have been feeling uninspired. 

I wrote most of my blog posts either leading up to Zambia or while I was living there. Everything was new and exciting. I felt like people would read what I had to say because I was having this unique experience. 

I have since gone back to "normal life" and I am having a harder time finding things to write about. 

3. I have not been trusting my voice. 

I don't know a ton of people who have been to Zambia. I was able to bring something new and different to the newsfeeds of those following me. I trusted that my experience and the lessons that I was learning were valid. I trusted my voice to tell the story of my time in Zambia. 

I have sat down to write a blog post since I have been back and felt like I had nothing to bring. "My life is not the same type of exciting." "People might disagree with this or that." "No one is going to read this." I know these things are not all true but thoughts of this nature have been holding me back from sharing. Even now I feel that this post may not even be worth publishing. 

Friends, I am here to say that I am trying to be done with this. While praying one day I felt the Lord convicting me about these things.  Though it may be small, he has given me a platform and a voice. He has given me passions and a way to share those with people. He has given me a very interesting and crazy life no matter the continent that I am serving Him on. My blog became about me as opposed to being about giving glory to God and that's what this is all about. That is what my life is all about. 

I want to be a big arrow pointing people to Jesus. BUT sometimes this arrow is broken. Sometimes it does stupid stuff.  Sometimes it points in the wrong direction. Sometimes it is dirty and beat up. Thankfully, I serve a God who fixes my broken pieces. A God who tells me I am being ridiculous and helps me to be better. A God who guides me and points me in the right direction. A God who cleans me off and loves me in the midst of it all. That my friends, is why I am writing this today. 

I wasn't planning on saying all of that but there it is.

:)